Monday, April 14, 2014

Choose Happiness

The last few months have forced me to do ALOT of self reflection and not everything I have seen about myself has been good. I have many flaws and faults as I expressed in my super transparent post that I later had to take down. I ruined my relationship with the perfect man for me. I demolished the love of my life and every single day I suffer as he suffers. This had led me down a path of mental instability and insecurity. I have realized that in our community, mental health is so taboo. We all hide from it or make fun of it. It is real and it is an illness. Its not just about sucking it up and getting better. Depression, anxiety, personality disorders, stress disorders etc are so very real and we must talk about these things and raise awareness. Cancers and terminal illnesses are not the only diseases that kill.

Yes it will be a struggle every single day and YES I punish myself every day but in the end I am choosing happiness along with seeing my mistakes and doing all I can to learn from them and NEVER repeat them again. Many want to define others by their mistakes or bad points in their life and I do not agree with that at all. We are all humans and we all falter. Some more than others but we all do it. The level of severity will fluctuate between us all but we cannot go in the past and change anything. All we can control is ourselves in the here and now so that our future is bright.

I see a bright future for myself. It may take a long time to get there but it will be great. I can honestly say that if my current relationship does not make it past this then I do not want anyone else. I will be happy spending time with friends and family and committing fully to my blog. I know who my soulmate is and without Louis, I am not going to waste my time with any other men. Sounds drastic but I am resolute in my decision.

So yes, my future will be as bright as my clothes are today. Why? Because I am CHOOSING to be happy!

White Shirt: GAP
Jeans: H&M
Shoes: Shoe Dazzle (minji)
Sunnies: Beauty Supply Store

Broccoli Festival DC

Spring time is here and in full force and that means music festivals and fun outdoors! I for one am SUPER excited to attend the Broccoli Festival going on this Saturday in DC. With the impending launch of my new lifestyle based blog, this is the perfect event to help kick it off with spunk!

I will be there most of the day shooting street style and interviewing attendees about everything from fashion to conscious living. Join me on Saturday and please stop and say hello! I love chatting with all of you!

Its not too late to get your tickets!!!  

Monday, April 7, 2014

She Inside- Outside

 Spring weather decided to poke its head out and grace us with its presence in the DC area this weekend and I was feeling pastels to celebrate the mild temperature. This mint SheInside coat was the perfect topper for my all denim ensemble. I initially wanted to pair it with red but decided to stay in the same color family and I am pretty excited how it worked out.

I have lost a little bit of weight, well 12lbs (go me!) and am pretty geeked that these high waisted bell bottoms now fit comfortably. I have been having a blast shopping in my closet and seeing the items that now fit with the weight loss. Who needs a store when you have a closet full of new additions?

 Thank you to Heather from Bait28 for this beautiful gold cuff. It is the perfect gold and size and I will be rocking it this whole spring and summer!
Thank you to my bf-tographer Louis for the pics

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

All White Affair

All White Outfit

click pics below for shopping links

There is a certain power in a monochromatic outfit. It lengthens and often leans and can be wardrobe magic if done correctly. My goal this spring is to fully immerse myself in pastels and all white outfits with different texture and volume. I absolutely adore this outfit and will be replicating very soon!

How do you all feel about wearing one color from head to toe?

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Baltimore Fashion TV

Someone once said, if you truly want something and believe it will be yours, that you will in fact receive it. While I love the idea behind this, I also know that you must work and HARD at that for what you want. At the beginning of the year I tweeted that this was the year I would make TV and Radio appearances speaking about fashion and sports. It is only March and lo and behold, I am now the blogger on staff on TheVipRoom radio show in Baltimore.

I tweeted and instagrammed about it but not sure if anyone had the chance to catch me on. I was super nervous at first but the minute the mic was in front of me the butterflies just POOF flew away!

many thanks to my mommy and the bf for the pics!

Dress (worn as a top): H&M
Jeans: Forever 21 (under 10 bucks)
Jacket: Forever 21 (old) Close option
Shoes: Shoe Dazzle

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Let It Go

Spring time is coming (I think) and that means rebirth, renewing and reinventing. I am going to try something different this year and actually get rid of clothes that I have not worn in a year or more. I realized that I suffer from severe separation anxiety and I thought I was like a little puppy who just missed their owner but finding that its with posessions too. It is REALLY time for me to say goodbye to my perfectly distressed Abercrombie & Fitch jeans from 2003. The jig is up, I will never again fit my bodaciously curvaceous thighs into those size 4s!

I must have really lost weight because this faux leather sleeved denim jacket was super snug the last time I wore it. So snug that I just had to wear slung over my shoulders cape style. But now fits comfortably, whoo hoo! The depression diet! (not funny).

I have found myself listening to alot of music lately and "Let It Go" from the Disney movie Frozen is number one on my list. "Kingdom of isolation and I am the Queen" speaks to me.

Thank you Shoe Dazzle for the best selection of shoes EVER!

Shirt: GAP
Skirt: Thrifted (Sag Harbor)
Pumps: Shoe Dazzle

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Pixie Hair Dos

Drastic new do for year 32!

When having a bad day, fashion can instantly lift up your spirits even if its only a millisecond. I wish more than anything that this was just a bad day and not a bad half a month but hey, I can't lie. I wear my emotions on my sleeve and on my social media so please bear with me as I fight through these oh so not good times. I really do not want to continue bringing you all doom and gloom but my blog is an extension of me. In some ways it is my diary and my place to feel a certain way, think certain things and dress as I see fit. In my every day life, I do not feel as if I do have a voice. But its me who allows the silencing. I allow my voice to be suppressed and I allow others to dictate my misery. I am praying for strength and praying for wisdom.

On a happier note: I am so grateful and thankful to everyone who text, messaged, FB'd, IG'd or called me for my birthday. Although I am in a slump, your concerns and well wishes will never go unnoticed.

Million thank yous to Keyondra for my awesome new hair style! I always wanted short hair but never had the "ovaries" to do it but with your magic, I am able to see that I could seriously rock the mess out of this cut! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Vest: DIY
Sweater: Banana Republic
Skirt: H&M
Tights: HUE
Shoes: Shoe Dazzle

Friday, February 28, 2014

GX by Gwen Stefani & Shoe Dazzle

You all know that I absolutely ADORE the shoe club curated by Rachel Zoe named Shoe Dazzle. Pretty much all of my shoes are from there and their quality surpasses any other subscriptions. I recently got an email from them stating that fashion icon extraordinaire Gwen Stefani collaborated with them on a new line and it is SICK!

As you can see above they all have that Stefani aesthetic in vibrant colors and grand architecture. She designs shoes that are art and I know that I will be purchasing a few. I have purchased so many that I have earned a free shoe and am having SUCH a hard time deciding. I am leaning towards the cobalt lace ups or the orange and coral pumps. Which do you think??

Check them all out here: GX by Gwen Stefani for Shoe Dazzle

Thursday, February 27, 2014

The Birthday

Its clear that I have been going through alot in my personal life as my blog and social media has drastically been affected by it. I am still in a very "down" place but each day I get a little bit stronger and wiser. The hardest person to truly see is yourself but these last few days I am learning to love this girl a little bit more and more.

My birthday is in less than a week and its the first time EVER that I do not have a million events planned which slightly frightens and invigorates me. I am looking forward to just spending it in an extremely low key way. I recently learned who my TRUE friends are and who is real and who is not. I look forward to embracing 32 with a very small circle of the right individuals. My mother always said not everyone is your friend and to stop making everyone a friend and she was absolutely right. So thank you to those who love me through and through even if from afar. Distance means nothing if your hearts are connected.

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